it's so deep, makes me think of my past and my future....
my life now is kind of dull boring and predictable....
2014年12月1日 星期一
2014年9月21日 星期日
2014年6月5日 星期四
Communication
It seems that I gradually have a hard time communicating with this world. Okay I am a pathetic loser who's got no confidence in myself.
You know just how funny others could be and you'll never reach that level of humor. And this kind of humorous people are all around me! I mean what is going on!
When I was a freshman in the college I worked very, very hard to actually fit in the group which was closer to me compared to the other groups in my class. I was not that isolated by them but a lot of times I felt empty and unsafe. Well I don't know if native speakers say that "unsafe", that's rather a Chinese-English style. Anyway I was losing the point again, maybe that's why people don't like me that much lol. I was trying to copy what words others will like to hear, and how others interact with each other. Man maybe I can get an award on researching human behavior. But I failed. Tried again and again, using other ways, still I didn't got the feeling I was looking for. And I am still longing for it but I don't know what to do. People always spreading articles like "ways to be happy" or "just be yourself" some kind of shit, but that doesn't really help. What really makes a difference is if you have made a difference yourself. But it's a hard task for me. I always think too much. That's really unbelievably extremely extraordinarily annoying. Really that is. And you can do nothing to stop it. It's easy for others to say "You are worrying too much." because all they've gotta do is speak all these 5 words! And I am fighting against the strongest enemy of all time for decades - myself !!!"
But one thing I should change is my not-being-contented attitude. Maybe I was asking too much, even I didn't speak a word out of it, I think I expected too much of my friends. I'm not saying they are bad, they are pretty nice actually, it's just that I want to have that kind of chemicals shared by all my friends. Like they know what to say sentences after sentences and complete a perfect funny conversation and laugh together. I could never accomplish that. All I do is boring question and answer talking. And also I don't know how to insult(this word is too harsh I suppose?) my friends. Normal friends care about you, and best friends make fun of you. If that's the truth then I don't have any best friends, not even my parents or brother. Fuck I don't wanna be myself anymore this is fucking miserable!
Well then, still this is me asking too much of others and myself. Maybe being humorous is not my style so I'll find another way. No expectations no disappointments. JUST BE YOURSELF yeah maybe I will.
I wanna say something absolutely different here. I recently discover a Youtuber name Cr1TiKaL. And for your information, if you think I swear a lot in this article, it's his fault. That guy is fucking nerdy and has some fucking good dry humor. And his voice. Wow.
I am nerdy too :P
Do you use that word? Nerdy? :P
You know just how funny others could be and you'll never reach that level of humor. And this kind of humorous people are all around me! I mean what is going on!
When I was a freshman in the college I worked very, very hard to actually fit in the group which was closer to me compared to the other groups in my class. I was not that isolated by them but a lot of times I felt empty and unsafe. Well I don't know if native speakers say that "unsafe", that's rather a Chinese-English style. Anyway I was losing the point again, maybe that's why people don't like me that much lol. I was trying to copy what words others will like to hear, and how others interact with each other. Man maybe I can get an award on researching human behavior. But I failed. Tried again and again, using other ways, still I didn't got the feeling I was looking for. And I am still longing for it but I don't know what to do. People always spreading articles like "ways to be happy" or "just be yourself" some kind of shit, but that doesn't really help. What really makes a difference is if you have made a difference yourself. But it's a hard task for me. I always think too much. That's really unbelievably extremely extraordinarily annoying. Really that is. And you can do nothing to stop it. It's easy for others to say "You are worrying too much." because all they've gotta do is speak all these 5 words! And I am fighting against the strongest enemy of all time for decades - myself !!!"
But one thing I should change is my not-being-contented attitude. Maybe I was asking too much, even I didn't speak a word out of it, I think I expected too much of my friends. I'm not saying they are bad, they are pretty nice actually, it's just that I want to have that kind of chemicals shared by all my friends. Like they know what to say sentences after sentences and complete a perfect funny conversation and laugh together. I could never accomplish that. All I do is boring question and answer talking. And also I don't know how to insult(this word is too harsh I suppose?) my friends. Normal friends care about you, and best friends make fun of you. If that's the truth then I don't have any best friends, not even my parents or brother. Fuck I don't wanna be myself anymore this is fucking miserable!
Well then, still this is me asking too much of others and myself. Maybe being humorous is not my style so I'll find another way. No expectations no disappointments. JUST BE YOURSELF yeah maybe I will.
I wanna say something absolutely different here. I recently discover a Youtuber name Cr1TiKaL. And for your information, if you think I swear a lot in this article, it's his fault. That guy is fucking nerdy and has some fucking good dry humor. And his voice. Wow.
I am nerdy too :P
Do you use that word? Nerdy? :P
2014年6月3日 星期二
Birthday approaches
Alright. I'll turn 23 this month.
how terrifying I'm getting old.
look back at what I've done so far....nothing actually.
if I had the ability to go back in the past, I would pretty much like to go back to the time when I was in the second year in college. Back then everything was under my control, sort of. Our toastmasters club ran pretty well and I was just a minor officer in the club which didn't have to take much responsibility. I have a bunch of friends and they hadn't seen the other side of me....? Which means, if I knew my flaws, I could avoid the bad and maybe remain our friendships. I guess you either get something or learn something from every lesson, yeah? And my grade back then was so great, I was really enjoying what I was learning , I really liked that feeling, even now I take out my textbook I think it is interesting. I think the miserable thing when I was in the second year was my style haha what was I, a fifteen-year-old girl??
And now, I don't know what the fuck should I do. I am currently working at a company that I am not really looking up to, my boss is an selfish person who thinks his employers are idiots and as long as we get paid by him, he owns us. And I don't really like the way he cheats on the customers. I really don't like it. Shouldn't people treat each other with credit in the business world? Or am I being naive again here? I hope not or I'll be really disappointed by this fucking damn world. Like I said, I really hate money, I need it only because I have to stay alive, that's all. Why do people need so much money anyway?
Ok I'm losing the point again.
I'm so lost now. I don't like my current job, but I don't know what I was capable of . I hope I can do something for my beautiful country, which seems really critical right now. I hope my life won't be so boring....
three wishes: first, find my way. Second, be brave. Third, Idk yet haha.
goodnight.
how terrifying I'm getting old.
look back at what I've done so far....nothing actually.
if I had the ability to go back in the past, I would pretty much like to go back to the time when I was in the second year in college. Back then everything was under my control, sort of. Our toastmasters club ran pretty well and I was just a minor officer in the club which didn't have to take much responsibility. I have a bunch of friends and they hadn't seen the other side of me....? Which means, if I knew my flaws, I could avoid the bad and maybe remain our friendships. I guess you either get something or learn something from every lesson, yeah? And my grade back then was so great, I was really enjoying what I was learning , I really liked that feeling, even now I take out my textbook I think it is interesting. I think the miserable thing when I was in the second year was my style haha what was I, a fifteen-year-old girl??
And now, I don't know what the fuck should I do. I am currently working at a company that I am not really looking up to, my boss is an selfish person who thinks his employers are idiots and as long as we get paid by him, he owns us. And I don't really like the way he cheats on the customers. I really don't like it. Shouldn't people treat each other with credit in the business world? Or am I being naive again here? I hope not or I'll be really disappointed by this fucking damn world. Like I said, I really hate money, I need it only because I have to stay alive, that's all. Why do people need so much money anyway?
Ok I'm losing the point again.
I'm so lost now. I don't like my current job, but I don't know what I was capable of . I hope I can do something for my beautiful country, which seems really critical right now. I hope my life won't be so boring....
three wishes: first, find my way. Second, be brave. Third, Idk yet haha.
goodnight.
2014年5月25日 星期日
Friendship ruined!!!
No!!!!
I don't wanna fall in love with you!!!!
You are my friend ....you are my good friend....
Why do you treat me so well ....
No no no no no
no .... I need time to chill ....
I don't wanna fall in love with you!!!!
You are my friend ....you are my good friend....
Why do you treat me so well ....
no .... I need time to chill ....
2014年5月17日 星期六
World
You must be humble.
You just must!
Because you don't know how big this world is! And you don't know how small you are.
Never overrate your own power. I always think it won't be too hard to write a good story, but when I went to the bookstore the other day, I found myself so wrong. How do those people came out with those awesome stories?
Work harder!
2014年5月8日 星期四
I am
Lonely
I am Ms. Lonely
I have no body
Only my own
I really don't know how to get along with people, seriously
I know how to be kind but I don't know how to be funny or sincere....
I am so boring....
But I guess that's why I like to be alone
No stress
No need to think about what to say
No need to think about how to react
No need to think about what others will think of you
I am such a boring person....
:(
I am Ms. Lonely
I have no body
Only my own
I really don't know how to get along with people, seriously
I know how to be kind but I don't know how to be funny or sincere....
I am so boring....
But I guess that's why I like to be alone
No stress
No need to think about what to say
No need to think about how to react
No need to think about what others will think of you
I am such a boring person....
:(
2014年5月4日 星期日
Film review: In Bruges
(pic from google)
In Bruges
Year: 2008
Director:
Martin McDonagh
Writer:
Martin McDonagh
Stars:
Colin Farrell, Brendan Gleeson
IMDb: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0780536/
I try not to give any spoiler, but I think
this movie has a lot of point to think about, and I might mention some but I
won't mention the ending of course.
*****************************************************
It's really not the kind of movie I
expected to see when I saw it. The Chinese name of the movie is 殺手沒有假期, which means "A hitman has no holiday" or something like
that.... so I thought it might be a funny movie like hitmans going on a trip
and something goes wrong and they have to fix it. But it's not. It's totally
not.
First of all it's a rather calm movie. Not
too many excitements, just Colin Farrel and Brendan Gleeson wondering around
Bruges (Google it if you don't know where it is, or ask a Belgian :D), and
nothing happened! It raised my curiosity successfully, but it's a little boring
at the same time. But as it proceeded, more issue raised and it made me want to
know what's next.
It's smooth (but some may consider it too
slow) and no thing left unexplained, but it left some things to the audiences
to think about in there lives, it's deep. And I also found an interesting fact
that there were a lot of keywords in this movie and they have been mentioned
many times. Vietnam? Dwarfs? Black and white? It's something we can think about
after we watch the movie. These keywords all contain some meaning behind them,
or stereotype.
And the ending, was an open question, which
I think was a good one. I will consider it a good movie because it's not that
boring after all, and it made you think. Hitmans are humans, and humans are
vulnerable. Lives are precious, and
mistakes are common, but don't blame yourself too much and don't give up.
That's the spirit.
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Okay it's pretty hard to write a review,
and it's even harder not to write in my mother language. I guess I should give
the spoiler next time (haha sorry) because I can explain the things I want to
talk about more clearly.
Well, everyone was a beginner before
becoming an expert, right? :)
Something different
I am going to write something different tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, because there is a movie i just watched on past Friday night. I think it's good! Just my type of movie.
Also I want to write something I haven't written before, not all that "awwww my customers are hot" thing haha, it's like writing a short version of Twilight every time. Still I hope what I wrote are "still better love stories than Twilight". If you leave this comment below I will be really grateful to you :P
Good night.
Also I want to write something I haven't written before, not all that "awwww my customers are hot" thing haha, it's like writing a short version of Twilight every time. Still I hope what I wrote are "still better love stories than Twilight". If you leave this comment below I will be really grateful to you :P
Good night.
2014年5月3日 星期六
關關難過
關關過....
yeah Mathis?
yeah a lot of my customers has names starts with the letter "M", and they are great haha
Mathis, Marco, Matthias....
Thanks to them my job seems a little bit interesting :)
though Mathis is a topical GERMAN....sometimes too strict haha
ok I want to meet him again in Germany haha
if I decide to stay in this company....
well, that is just a random conversation, why do I care so much I can't get it myself!??
He said "(see you)next time in Germany" so??
Runnynight you have to put yourself together!!!!
okay I'm missing the point again, or am I not? Because if you can understand the Chinese title, it has a lot to do with my job....
if I wanna go to Germany, I will have to overcome all the difficulties I encounter on my work, but I also wanna leave this company, but again I wanna meet him again in Germany because he said that to me!!!!! Maybe that's just random words why do I take it so serious?
what kind of drama am I in now hahaha I don't know either.
but whatever, you know, I feel better if I think there is someone out there waiting for me and want to meet a better me.
thanks Mathis, no matter it's real or fake.
yeah Mathis?
yeah a lot of my customers has names starts with the letter "M", and they are great haha
Mathis, Marco, Matthias....
Thanks to them my job seems a little bit interesting :)
though Mathis is a topical GERMAN....sometimes too strict haha
ok I want to meet him again in Germany haha
if I decide to stay in this company....
well, that is just a random conversation, why do I care so much I can't get it myself!??
He said "(see you)next time in Germany" so??
Runnynight you have to put yourself together!!!!
okay I'm missing the point again, or am I not? Because if you can understand the Chinese title, it has a lot to do with my job....
if I wanna go to Germany, I will have to overcome all the difficulties I encounter on my work, but I also wanna leave this company, but again I wanna meet him again in Germany because he said that to me!!!!! Maybe that's just random words why do I take it so serious?
what kind of drama am I in now hahaha I don't know either.
but whatever, you know, I feel better if I think there is someone out there waiting for me and want to meet a better me.
thanks Mathis, no matter it's real or fake.
2014年4月29日 星期二
2014年4月24日 星期四
Grammar!!!!
It's not the first time that I want to kill myself just because I see how terrible I am with grammar.
Seriously, my grammar sucks.
And when I was a child I always thought that grammar=grandmother XDD
it's been a while
it's been a while since last time I really like a person
and now I don't have one either,
but my customers are hot....as hell XD
well, but nothing's gonna happened
just an other German with nothing to look forward to, at least this one don't. And I don't want to have CCR again. I worry too much :P he is my customer what do I expect, oh I am a romance addict.
and it's been a long while since last time I study English.... Also German, Japanese and Finnish :P
it's been a while since the last time I go home on time after work.... And I think I can't stand it anymore. My stomach hurts everyday because I go home too late for dinner....maybe.
and its been a while since I hear from you. Do you have a girlfriend now? How are you? What are you doing right now? It is so strange....and I guess I will never hear from you again.
last, its been a while since I last wrote a blog, that's the main reason I am here now! ;)
and now I don't have one either,
but my customers are hot....as hell XD
well, but nothing's gonna happened
just an other German with nothing to look forward to, at least this one don't. And I don't want to have CCR again. I worry too much :P he is my customer what do I expect, oh I am a romance addict.
and it's been a long while since last time I study English.... Also German, Japanese and Finnish :P
it's been a while since the last time I go home on time after work.... And I think I can't stand it anymore. My stomach hurts everyday because I go home too late for dinner....maybe.
and its been a while since I hear from you. Do you have a girlfriend now? How are you? What are you doing right now? It is so strange....and I guess I will never hear from you again.
last, its been a while since I last wrote a blog, that's the main reason I am here now! ;)
2014年3月29日 星期六
It's always like that.
總是在過一段時間之後
會有一些體悟
像最近我覺得我真的該和我的過去說再見了
因為最近面對的事情已讓我那難以摧毀的價值觀動搖了
我總認為我很清楚我在做什麼，什麼事情該怎麼做，或是我做的一定不會錯。還有就是我很自認為清高，有些東西不屑一顧，殊不知自己才是井底之蛙。我錯了，我真的錯了，若是想作為一個人類，有些事真的是要妥協的。我已不再是小孩子了，不能再用小孩子的腦袋去思考事情。現在覺得得和現實妥協，搞不好以後會對自己現在的想法會心一笑。希望真是這樣。再不長大只會更痛苦罷了。再見了我的過去。如果我留下才是對的，那請妳好好幫我記著，當我有一天需要你的時候，再回來找你吧。
會有一些體悟
像最近我覺得我真的該和我的過去說再見了
因為最近面對的事情已讓我那難以摧毀的價值觀動搖了
我總認為我很清楚我在做什麼，什麼事情該怎麼做，或是我做的一定不會錯。還有就是我很自認為清高，有些東西不屑一顧，殊不知自己才是井底之蛙。我錯了，我真的錯了，若是想作為一個人類，有些事真的是要妥協的。我已不再是小孩子了，不能再用小孩子的腦袋去思考事情。現在覺得得和現實妥協，搞不好以後會對自己現在的想法會心一笑。希望真是這樣。再不長大只會更痛苦罷了。再見了我的過去。如果我留下才是對的，那請妳好好幫我記著，當我有一天需要你的時候，再回來找你吧。
2014年3月24日 星期一
2014年3月20日 星期四
God bless Taiwan
Please
God please bless Taiwan, please let peace and calm always be with the students who has the courage to stand out against the government.
I wish I am one of them.
May peace be with us.
God please bless Taiwan, please let peace and calm always be with the students who has the courage to stand out against the government.
I wish I am one of them.
May peace be with us.
2014年3月15日 星期六
Fan Girl Style #Mayday
Okay I admit haha
I still love him soooooo much
My favorite band from Taiwan
Lead singer Ashin
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
Picture from Google.（。３。）
Awwwwww my godddddd
God I can't open my eyessssssssssss
Love overloaded !!!!
If I'd say that Teemu saves my fragile soul and fixes my broken heart many times
then I'd say that Ashin gives/gave me many, many fun times, and good times/ hopes/ wonders/ fantasy/ encouragement/ and of course really great musics. There's always a song from them that matches my mood, no matter what mood I am in. Sad happy upset disappointed ....
He is really a great man. I mean we fan girls only know him from what the mass media have told us, but I think even so he still does a great job in front of the scene, (well I believe if there's any bad things that could become gossip the paparazzi won't let off, but so far only few) and I believe he won't be too bad backstage.
The reason why he is great is of course because he is talented in music. Music with emotions and stories. The emotion that we share as human beings (confusion, love, playful heart and .... damn my English is not good enough to describe ....)
Love him always. I tell him my gratitude to him/ them if I have a chance to meet him/ them, which I think many people have already did :).
His music is already a part of soul :)
阿信我愛你！
I still love him soooooo much
My favorite band from Taiwan
Lead singer Ashin
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
Picture from Google.（。３。）
Awwwwww my godddddd
God I can't open my eyessssssssssss
Love overloaded !!!!
If I'd say that Teemu saves my fragile soul and fixes my broken heart many times
then I'd say that Ashin gives/gave me many, many fun times, and good times/ hopes/ wonders/ fantasy/ encouragement/ and of course really great musics. There's always a song from them that matches my mood, no matter what mood I am in. Sad happy upset disappointed ....
He is really a great man. I mean we fan girls only know him from what the mass media have told us, but I think even so he still does a great job in front of the scene, (well I believe if there's any bad things that could become gossip the paparazzi won't let off, but so far only few) and I believe he won't be too bad backstage.
The reason why he is great is of course because he is talented in music. Music with emotions and stories. The emotion that we share as human beings (confusion, love, playful heart and .... damn my English is not good enough to describe ....)
Love him always. I tell him my gratitude to him/ them if I have a chance to meet him/ them, which I think many people have already did :).
His music is already a part of soul :)
阿信我愛你！
2014年3月13日 星期四
Teemu
Teemu I wanna talk to you
even though I've never met you
your music always cheer me up
or company me when I am sad or lonely or lost
you are the reason I changed my hometown to Finland Turku on Facebook hahaha okay I'm crazy
still I miss you... I no longer miss my favorite band from Taiwan (Ashin sorry :p) because they are not the same band anymore... Too commercialized you know what I mean?
they used to sing about daily lives, loves, and dreams from the bottom of their hearts, I just knew it... But now they sing from the bottom of thier pockets...
you are different. Cause your band broke up when I've only knew you for three months. It was sooooooooooooo heart breaking. It's like your lover tells you to break up when you are so much in love with that person. Music is the thing that never fade away that last forever. So you left with all the great music behind that still comfort me and company me till now.
wait, the way I'm writing now is like you are dead ........ NOOOOO nonono he is still well alive in Finland or England or somewhere or in my heart hahaha that's why I want to see him!!!! Somewhere in the world he is still making great music, and as long as we are alive I may met him someday.
you see, I don't need to meet you in person and now I am happy just because I am thinking about you. Haha. Fangirl style.
#Teemu #Brunila #Finland #StillAlive #Ponyride #Ihana #Suomi
:) kiitos !
even though I've never met you
your music always cheer me up
or company me when I am sad or lonely or lost
you are the reason I changed my hometown to Finland Turku on Facebook hahaha okay I'm crazy
still I miss you... I no longer miss my favorite band from Taiwan (Ashin sorry :p) because they are not the same band anymore... Too commercialized you know what I mean?
they used to sing about daily lives, loves, and dreams from the bottom of their hearts, I just knew it... But now they sing from the bottom of thier pockets...
you are different. Cause your band broke up when I've only knew you for three months. It was sooooooooooooo heart breaking. It's like your lover tells you to break up when you are so much in love with that person. Music is the thing that never fade away that last forever. So you left with all the great music behind that still comfort me and company me till now.
wait, the way I'm writing now is like you are dead ........ NOOOOO nonono he is still well alive in Finland or England or somewhere or in my heart hahaha that's why I want to see him!!!! Somewhere in the world he is still making great music, and as long as we are alive I may met him someday.
you see, I don't need to meet you in person and now I am happy just because I am thinking about you. Haha. Fangirl style.
#Teemu #Brunila #Finland #StillAlive #Ponyride #Ihana #Suomi
:) kiitos !
Tears always win
crying like ohohohoh
ohohoh these eyes put up a fight
but once again
these tears always win
these reality
they keep me so uptight
these loneliness
they keep me so empty
these feelings that make me scared and unconfident
they make me feel like a loser
my heart put up many fights
but sadly
the fear always wins
my heart put up a fight
and hopefully
my courage and effort can finally win.
ohohoh these eyes put up a fight
but once again
these tears always win
these reality
they keep me so uptight
these loneliness
they keep me so empty
these feelings that make me scared and unconfident
they make me feel like a loser
my heart put up many fights
but sadly
the fear always wins
my heart put up a fight
and hopefully
my courage and effort can finally win.
2014年3月6日 星期四
Poor Sherlock
English pronounciaton might not seem that important as long as others understand what you are talking about but... My friend keep saying Sherlock "Homeless"... Okay... Well he might not have enough money to buy a house but he's got he old lady
and I don't know how to spell her name haha
nevermind. just saying.
and I don't know how to spell her name haha
nevermind. just saying.
2014年3月1日 星期六
Silence
Silence came after a day of joy
whispered at my ear
What do you do now?
Yeah, what do I do now in the middle of the night?
I think
I think about all the dreams and wonders I might bring to my beloved land
To bring days of joy to everyone in the future
When silence comes to me
--
But actually I need to get some sleep
My good friend brought the DVD of The Lord of the Rings to my place and we watched it till so late.
Man I'll never stop watching movies, I just love it.
Still, sleeeeeep.
whispered at my ear
What do you do now?
Yeah, what do I do now in the middle of the night?
I think
I think about all the dreams and wonders I might bring to my beloved land
To bring days of joy to everyone in the future
When silence comes to me
--
But actually I need to get some sleep
My good friend brought the DVD of The Lord of the Rings to my place and we watched it till so late.
Man I'll never stop watching movies, I just love it.
Still, sleeeeeep.
2014年2月27日 星期四
我不能苟同！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
我不能苟同！！！
為什麼要經過痛苦才會有快樂
誰規定的
不要跟我說就是這樣
一定有個理由
一定在某個宇宙之外有這麼一個地方
是不受這些東西的拘束
遠超過佛教的想像
我相信佛教所說的來世
但我對此非常嗤之以鼻
如果我不想要有下一世呢？
為什麼我一定要有？
這世界上的一切都讓我想死
我永遠也沒有辦法快樂
或是有安全感
或是被感覺需要
沒有存在的價值
我很想一死了之
然後再也不要轉世
沒意義阿
到底在幹嘛
為什麼要經過痛苦才會有快樂
誰規定的
不要跟我說就是這樣
一定有個理由
一定在某個宇宙之外有這麼一個地方
是不受這些東西的拘束
遠超過佛教的想像
我相信佛教所說的來世
但我對此非常嗤之以鼻
如果我不想要有下一世呢？
為什麼我一定要有？
這世界上的一切都讓我想死
我永遠也沒有辦法快樂
或是有安全感
或是被感覺需要
沒有存在的價值
我很想一死了之
然後再也不要轉世
沒意義阿
到底在幹嘛
2014年2月20日 星期四
Today
I just love to see the small smiling face :) my customer gave me in the email. :)
One of my German customers is so cute. I told him our supplier finished the goods that he needs urgently on time, and he told me "gut gemacht ^|^"
And my only customer from Austria is also cute. I can't tell, I just like him.
Although I meet my customers only on emails, and the topics are the same one or two things, I can slightly feel what kind of people they are from our conversation. Some people are cute, some people are serious and some people are always in a hurry. You could always imagine how they would look like and what kind of people they really are. And I like meeting so many kinds of people, it's interesting.
My Austrian customer never smile. I guessed he is the serious kind of people, but I think I should make an adjustment. I would say he is a gentleman. I haven't seen him send the kind of email with only one word "REMINDER", and I can always feel that he is calm and does things in order. Maybe he is a little cold but he is not rude. There was one time that I added "Have a nice Valentine's Day." at the end of the email, and he didn't give a reply (or maybe I shouldn't expect any reply?:)) unlike one of my German customer, he replied "Oooooouuuugh Valentine's Day...., thanks for reminding me ;-) ...." (What, does that hurt you? xD)
Work gives me so much pain and so much fun at the same time. I don't want people to consider me a childish person, but I guess I have to work harder on that. I think growing up might not be that bad. Being a child is good, you can see what you can do in the future, and growing up means you are on the way to it.
One of my German customers is so cute. I told him our supplier finished the goods that he needs urgently on time, and he told me "gut gemacht ^|^"
And my only customer from Austria is also cute. I can't tell, I just like him.
Although I meet my customers only on emails, and the topics are the same one or two things, I can slightly feel what kind of people they are from our conversation. Some people are cute, some people are serious and some people are always in a hurry. You could always imagine how they would look like and what kind of people they really are. And I like meeting so many kinds of people, it's interesting.
My Austrian customer never smile. I guessed he is the serious kind of people, but I think I should make an adjustment. I would say he is a gentleman. I haven't seen him send the kind of email with only one word "REMINDER", and I can always feel that he is calm and does things in order. Maybe he is a little cold but he is not rude. There was one time that I added "Have a nice Valentine's Day." at the end of the email, and he didn't give a reply (or maybe I shouldn't expect any reply?:)) unlike one of my German customer, he replied "Oooooouuuugh Valentine's Day...., thanks for reminding me ;-) ...." (What, does that hurt you? xD)
Work gives me so much pain and so much fun at the same time. I don't want people to consider me a childish person, but I guess I have to work harder on that. I think growing up might not be that bad. Being a child is good, you can see what you can do in the future, and growing up means you are on the way to it.
2014年2月19日 星期三
Subtitle
I just found that my first two articles are published AT THE SAME TIME yeah! I am a genius hahahahaha.
Since this place is kind of like my second diary, a place for me to think and a place for me to, well, practice my English writing, it will be bloody good to name it -
MIND PALACE yeah - !
Sherlock, just my type hahaha ;)
I love writing. Makes me think and see more clearly. I like myself when I am writing :)
Since this place is kind of like my second diary, a place for me to think and a place for me to, well, practice my English writing, it will be bloody good to name it -
MIND PALACE yeah - !
Sherlock, just my type hahaha ;)
I love writing. Makes me think and see more clearly. I like myself when I am writing :)
Germany
I hope you were just wondering around on the Internet and visited this blog by accident. Well, that one viewer from Germany worried me. It also made me a little mad because I planned to make this place a secret without being seen by anyone who knows or knew me, because in that case I won't be honest with myself when I am writing. I hope I was just worrying too much again this time.
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I was chatting with my friend about studying in Germany last night. She was so exciting! So looking forward to study Art in Bremen, and she hopes that I can be her roommate. Haha I could if I can get the permission to enter University Hamburg. I really doubt it actually, and I am not sure about this myself because I just started searching for the information today!
Germany really is a place full of memories. But both good and bad ones. My only hope is that my present didn't disgrace some people's memories though they somehow did make mine disgraced. No body is to blame, just blame the fate I guess cause no one likes to be awkward. Fuck you fate.
But I was also thinking about going to Finland. It's crazy because the only reason is a person that I always adore - he is kinda my hero (European version :P)
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awwwwwww Teemu, Ihana! but I should be down to earth, shouldn't I :) let fantasy be fantasy and a fan girl be a fan girl :) I would definitely visit Turku someday.
/
I was chatting with my friend about studying in Germany last night. She was so exciting! So looking forward to study Art in Bremen, and she hopes that I can be her roommate. Haha I could if I can get the permission to enter University Hamburg. I really doubt it actually, and I am not sure about this myself because I just started searching for the information today!
Germany really is a place full of memories. But both good and bad ones. My only hope is that my present didn't disgrace some people's memories though they somehow did make mine disgraced. No body is to blame, just blame the fate I guess cause no one likes to be awkward. Fuck you fate.
But I was also thinking about going to Finland. It's crazy because the only reason is a person that I always adore - he is kinda my hero (European version :P)
awwwwwww Teemu, Ihana! but I should be down to earth, shouldn't I :) let fantasy be fantasy and a fan girl be a fan girl :) I would definitely visit Turku someday.
2014年2月10日 星期一
Me.
So this is how everybody looks like.
Selfish. Yeah.
I once, no I mean, I always have a thought that I am a considerate person. I always think of the others, like what they might need or if they are feeling comfortable. Like I am the good one.
But isn't everyone like that WHEN THEY ARE WITH STRANGERS OR PEOPLE THEY ARE NOT SO CLOSE?
I don't know. There's a face thing. Because when I am with my family, I don't think I act like the person I am when I am with others. I act like a d-bag, annoying kid but still insist I am a good person.
What's the point of writing this article anyway. I'm sorry if you are reading this, you'll probably wasting your time reading a person's none sense. And if you are curious I am writing with chinglish. That's why the spelling and grammar is in a mess. Are in a mess. Mass. Whatever.
I'm just so confused with life. And when I am confused, I indulge myself in the virtual reality/ Internet. When I am in there, I forget everything. No time limits, no burdens, no duties, but my reality and tomorrows remember those for me, and my body remembers health issue for me. Like now it's 12 at night and I am still typing this I-don't-know-about-life thing. As long as there's tomorrow, there's gonna be tons of problems to solve. There's hopes in tomorrow only for those who know where exactly they are aiming. I don't know what I can do. And I don't know what I am capable of. I see patterns of life, and whining is only one of them. So give me a break, don't try to teach me something which I have heard for million times.
I just need some courage. To break through this.
Ok It might seemed arrogant to say I see patterns of life, I think I should say, I might know what is in front of me, but I don't know what it exactly feels like. And this frightens me.
Oh dear lord it's been a long time since I write something. And so many things just popped up. So I miss the point. What I was about to say is, am such a d-bag (I didn't spell it out because I don't know how to spell it and I am so lazy to look up in the dictionary) (maybe it's good not to). One hour ago I was talking to my mom telling her that I know I need to look after my health and shape, but half an hour ago I was yelling at her, telling I will go to sleep as soon as I finish using the internet. And my dad, saying nothing to me, just looked at me, and walked upstairs and went to sleep.
At that moment I felt mixed. I was so confused, and so I want to run away and find a place to hide, and I ignore their caring and love. If they are strangers I wouldn't say things so straight forward and harm them. BECAUSE THEY WILL HATE ME. BECAUSE I CARE ABOUT MY FACE. WHAT A BITCH. THINKING ABOUT MYSELF ONLY. And in the end I discover that I am just a selfish person.
And because they are so close to me, they will need to suffer from so much me. So much me.
I'm a loser.
What am I writing, Jesus.
Just need a place to put trashes.
Sorry for your time. If there's anyone reading this.
Selfish. Yeah.
I once, no I mean, I always have a thought that I am a considerate person. I always think of the others, like what they might need or if they are feeling comfortable. Like I am the good one.
But isn't everyone like that WHEN THEY ARE WITH STRANGERS OR PEOPLE THEY ARE NOT SO CLOSE?
I don't know. There's a face thing. Because when I am with my family, I don't think I act like the person I am when I am with others. I act like a d-bag, annoying kid but still insist I am a good person.
What's the point of writing this article anyway. I'm sorry if you are reading this, you'll probably wasting your time reading a person's none sense. And if you are curious I am writing with chinglish. That's why the spelling and grammar is in a mess. Are in a mess. Mass. Whatever.
I'm just so confused with life. And when I am confused, I indulge myself in the virtual reality/ Internet. When I am in there, I forget everything. No time limits, no burdens, no duties, but my reality and tomorrows remember those for me, and my body remembers health issue for me. Like now it's 12 at night and I am still typing this I-don't-know-about-life thing. As long as there's tomorrow, there's gonna be tons of problems to solve. There's hopes in tomorrow only for those who know where exactly they are aiming. I don't know what I can do. And I don't know what I am capable of. I see patterns of life, and whining is only one of them. So give me a break, don't try to teach me something which I have heard for million times.
I just need some courage. To break through this.
Ok It might seemed arrogant to say I see patterns of life, I think I should say, I might know what is in front of me, but I don't know what it exactly feels like. And this frightens me.
Oh dear lord it's been a long time since I write something. And so many things just popped up. So I miss the point. What I was about to say is, am such a d-bag (I didn't spell it out because I don't know how to spell it and I am so lazy to look up in the dictionary) (maybe it's good not to). One hour ago I was talking to my mom telling her that I know I need to look after my health and shape, but half an hour ago I was yelling at her, telling I will go to sleep as soon as I finish using the internet. And my dad, saying nothing to me, just looked at me, and walked upstairs and went to sleep.
At that moment I felt mixed. I was so confused, and so I want to run away and find a place to hide, and I ignore their caring and love. If they are strangers I wouldn't say things so straight forward and harm them. BECAUSE THEY WILL HATE ME. BECAUSE I CARE ABOUT MY FACE. WHAT A BITCH. THINKING ABOUT MYSELF ONLY. And in the end I discover that I am just a selfish person.
And because they are so close to me, they will need to suffer from so much me. So much me.
I'm a loser.
What am I writing, Jesus.
Just need a place to put trashes.
Sorry for your time. If there's anyone reading this.
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