Birthday approaches

Alright. I'll turn 23 this month.
how terrifying I'm getting old.
look back at what I've done so far....nothing actually.
if I had the ability to go back in the past, I would pretty much like to go back to the time when I was in the second year in college. Back then everything was under my control, sort of. Our toastmasters club ran pretty well and I was just a minor officer in the club which didn't have to take much responsibility. I have a bunch of friends and they hadn't seen the other side of me....? Which means, if I knew my flaws, I could avoid the bad and maybe remain our friendships. I guess you either get something or learn something from every lesson, yeah? And my grade back then was so great, I was really enjoying what I was learning , I really liked that feeling, even now I take out my textbook I think it is interesting. I think the miserable thing when I was in the second year was my style haha what was I, a fifteen-year-old girl??
And now, I don't know what the fuck should I do. I am currently working at a company that I am not really looking up to, my boss is an selfish person who thinks his employers are idiots and as long as we get paid by him, he owns us. And I don't really like the way he cheats on the customers. I really don't like it. Shouldn't people treat each other with credit in the business world? Or am I being naive again here? I hope not or I'll be really disappointed by this fucking damn world. Like I said, I really hate money, I need it only because I have to stay alive, that's all. Why do people need so much money anyway?
Ok I'm losing the point again.
I'm so lost now. I don't like my current job, but I don't know what I was capable of . I hope I can do something for my beautiful country, which seems really critical right now. I hope my life won't be so boring....

three wishes: first, find my way. Second, be brave. Third, Idk yet haha.
goodnight.